Chapter 121

***Kenya.***

***Present day, three days later***

It was Thursday afternoon. The weather, mildly warm and I allowed myself enjoy it, Alec and I strolled in a nearby park. Our hands accidentally touched, as we walked. But I didn't mind. Made me feel valued, by this simple man..

Since that day at Lake restaurant, we grew closer. Calling and messaging each other more often. We talked about everything. He was a living picture of peace that I wanted to embrace. The kind of warmth I had yearned for most of my life.

I even missed over my dreams of marrying a doctor, when I was younger. But things were different now, I was married.

"Something wrong?" Alec said beside me. I grew sad.

"Nothing." I didn't want to dwell in my sadness. I didn't want to be cruel by ruining this moment for us. I stood, my body missing Levi's touch. The scent of earth, reminding me of his earthy perfume. I instantly wished to push him off.

"Can I ask you a favor?" I looked into his eyes. I was hesitant, but I knew I needed to get Levi out of my system. It had been days since we were last together and I needed him. I missed him. And I hated me for that.

"Anything." Alec smiled. *Oh that smile*. Mesmerizing. I needed to drown myself in it , or be reduced to ashes, because I craved who I didn't want to have. *Levi*.

"Would you kiss me?" I breathed.

I must have sounded desperate, pathetic. However, I didn't mind. Anything that could erase the feel of Levi against my lips, against my skin.

Alec watched me silently for seconds. His eyes unfathomable. I suddenly regretted my stupid request. I had just gone and ruined everything.

Trying to ease the awkward silence, I hastily said.

"It's fine, Alec. I don't know what I was thinking. Perhaps it's the" I paused, flushing with embarrassment.

I looked around, not wanting to hear anything from Alec. Though he didn't even move.

Instinctively I crossed the lawn, putting distance between us. He didn't call me nor stop me.

I hadn't even wanted him to. The look in his eyes had given enough away. Revulsion. Embarrassment. I was a pathetic woman.

I had been crushing over him for years in high school. As a married woman now, I allowed my current circumstances foil my better judgement.

I arrived my hotel room in a few minutes. I didn't allow myself cry in the cab, because I barely knew the reason I was hurt. Shooting was ending in a week and I'd be expected to face my life. End this promenade with my freedom.

I slumped in bed, pulling out my phone.

K. C's message popped on the notification bar. We had been discussing ways in which a couple satisfied each other, without having the other half present. He suggested toys and stuff, earlier. But I had argued against it. I had recalled Levi's sex play on me, weeks ago in the cave.

***K.C: Should I teach you?***

I looked at the message, puzzled.

Me: Teach me what?

***K.C: Pleasuring yourself without toys. You didn't seem to like the idea earlier.***

I stiffened. Pushing the phone face down on the mattress.

*What?*

The only time I had pleasured myself, was when Levi had asked me to. It had felt good. Adding to the ecstasy I had felt.

Now I was being propositioned to do it by another man. *Wasn't that being unfaithful to Levi?*

My body instantly grew warm to the thought. My nipples ached. My breath picked up. The thought taking root inside me, as I replied.

***K.C: I wouldn't bite. I'd be gentle.***

I bit my lower lip, nursing the thought.

*What was he going to do?*

But if I didn't do this, I would continue to ache for Levi. And if I did, I'd have release, right?

***Me: Would I find release?***

***K.C: If you trust me.***

Trust. The last man I trusted, turned out to be a killer. A monster from a monster. I was trapped. Caught between my need for release and my need for self-preservation.

In the end, my need won.

***Me: Show me.***

There was a pause and I saw his typing bubble again.

***K.C: Take off your clothes. Everything, until you are naked.***

This was ridiculous. I was obeying a man I barely knew. Never met him and I was going to phone sex him? But I found I welcomed the thought. It was intriguing. Daring. Rebellious. A distraction from my humiliation with Alec.

I complied. Down to my skin, cold. I slipped behind the covers. Another message.

***K.C: My lips are trailing your skin. Your lips. Your neck. I am climbing back up to your lips. My fingers tweaking your nipples. Touch those spots I called. And in that order.***

My fingers shook as I obeyed. Touching my lips, my neck. My nipples. I gasped. A cool, sweet tremor climbing me.

***Me: Okay. Done.***

***K.C: Don't respond. Only when you finally have your release. Now, knead your nipples, pinch them, until you cry the name of the one you want. Me.***

I touched my nipples. Pressed them, until my nipples were sore. And a warm wetness, pooled inside my thighs.

This was madness, but I liked it. Levi's face kept flashing across my mind. Pleasuring me.

And I let it. K.C's messages continued. And I went on, until he asked me to touch my nether regions.

I touched my clit, my entrance. Circling, pressing. My clit rigid, my entrance pooled with cum.

I cried, dipping my finger. Mimicking Levi's thrusts. Slow, fast. This wasn't about me and K. C anymore.

I was with Levi.

His touches sending me to a frenzy.

I cried his name, my clit burning. A pressure quickening.

Soon, my release found me. I was breathless.

Calm again, I typed.

***Me: I came.***

***K.C: Whose face did you see?***

I couldn't answer.

*Levi.*